Recurring Dreams

I have recurring dreams. Lots of them. There's the one about the bathroom with lots of toilets and lots of bathtubs. But the doors don't lock and there's no privacy.

There's the one about being back in college again. Always at Illinois Wesleyan. I'm moving into my dorm room and meeting my new roommates. I explain to them that this is funny that I am going back to college because I already have my degree. And, in fact, I am in my forties and married with three kids. Sometimes, I even explain to the new roomies that I have a recurring dream about this - but I never seem to realize that it is a dream at the time.

There's the dream where I am back in high school, even though I know I've graduated. I can't find my locker, or my classes. I don't even have a pencil. I just know I haven't done my homework.

There was a dream I had for a long time about driving down country roads and being really lost. I had always assumed that it was a dream about going to my Uncle Jack and Aunt Pat's house in Dixon for Thanksgiving. And then we moved here. Now I live that dream.

There's a dream that I am riding on the El (train) from Chicago where I have just had pizza with my sister. I am going to my mother's new condo, and I am a little unsure about my ability to find it. Actually, in the dream, my dad still lives there.

I am going to Chicago next weekend to visit my mother and see her new condo. And my sister invited me for pizza in the city. So I am having a dejavu experience prior to even going.

I believe sometimes that God gives me previews of what is to come. And sometime I also relive the past in my dreams. I probably do feel that I have gone back to school in some ways with home schooling. And I do struggle with feeling unprepared, like I haven't done my homework, and I don't know where my classes are.